So I was sitting here doom scrolling through Instagram. And I came across a quote by bell hooks that said, "no one healed in isolation". I t hit me in such a way that I am still in awe, and as I dictate this message... I realize that’s what I’ve been doing.
Being an isolation is a special kind of drug. It’s a special kind of comfort that is more than mashed potatoes and gravy or turkey on Thanksgiving with fresh veggies from a good haul. Isolation is not necessarily a place that you go, but a place that you end up. It is sometimes the destination that happens when you go into the world. But you don’t have a destination in mind. You just end up going out into the world and experiencing it and the people.
And sometimes you end up getting burned.
And that’s one of the things that lead to isolation.
And you get comfortable in whatever sickness that it is, that you know, that you understand, that you smell and feel and hear and touch and taste every single moment.
I wanted to write or dictate this message because, in all the things that I’m doing right now with promoting my book and working and thinking about the jobs that I don’t have; the job that I don’t have, is the one I want the most. The one that don’t pay any money But it has a title, a purpose and every day duties.
I’m in isolation and if I do not heal in isolation, then I will continue to be.