Monday, June 23, 2025

When The Wheels Started to Wobble pt II

So shit took another big down-turn on May 4th of this year. This is from my pictorial documentation which was on May 4th. I broke my shifter. I have an old 2007 Chrysler Pacifica. It’s not the greatest car, but it gets me to where I need to be and back home. In any case, this was how the shifter looked at the beginning.


I knew the part was going to cost, and I knew the labor would be a cost as well. The only issue was I had little to no money to get it fixed. I was alone, solo/dolo and mechanicing is not really in my wheelhouse. However YouTube is a real thing, so I got busy doing some research once I got the vehicle towed back to my place.  


I found this video listed here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J9pCkZ-bjWY&t=68s and it seemed simple enough. I had the tools, and the time to get it done, so I gave it a shot. I also researched how much the part would be if my shifter was completely fucked off. So I ended up taking the whole thing out, getting it into the house and trying to see what the issue was.



It wasn't' the hardest job in the world, but it was pretty nerve-racking. There were electrical wires, and thin plastic clips that could break with the wrong move. I didn't disconnect my battery, and my nerves were definitely not made of steel. But here I was going in with no training, other than a YouTube video, and my basic ass brain. 








The only mode of transportation I had to get back and forth to a job that I only had to go in twice a week was at hand. Also the only mode of transportation which allowed me to get food from the grocery store and other errands that require this vehicle. Part of me felt kind of empowered, the other part felt like, if I screw this up, I'm very, very fucked.





However the Universe/God/Guardian Angel were with me, and I was able to get the entire shifter out of the car, and into the house. It took several "adult time outs" to make sure my frustration didn't get the better of me, and a good portion of a very expensive pack of cigarettes, but the job got done.










I won't go into any great detail because hey, I'm not a mechanic! I'll just refer you to the video that is on Youtube, and tell you, I followed the directions to a freakin' T. As I disassembled the shifter, I found out that a piece of plastic had broken off, the spring had been dislodged, and the plastic part that held the spring in place was gone as well. 
Luckily the video covered how to fix the spring, and some gorilla glue was an attempt at fixing the other broken plastic piece. So I put the shifter back in the car and see if my fix job worked.  I won't hold you in suspense, it didn't work.  I would need to buy a new shifter--damn.




Mind you, I'm broke as all get out, just got paid, paid the mortgage, but had to live for another 2 weeks before getting paid again.  I found a shifter on Amazon for $431, after taxes and shipping it was $466.68. I would have to live on about $200 for the next two weeks.

To make a long story short, the part came in the mail in about a week, and I was able to get it in the car without a huge hassle, and my car is currently in working order. I do realize that my car is old, untagged but insured. I don't say this to give a story about old cars, but I tell it to say, sometimes we don't realize the power we have to persevere through seemingly unyielding odds.

I am not out of the woods yet. I have court on the 25th of July, and I've got a part time job lined up.  But I have a working vehicle, and some more income coming in. I have accomplished things not in my wheelhouse and have taken accountability for my short-comings. It is through blind faith that I can and will get through. This gets me through most days. If I can get through all this with a YouTube video, some elbow grease, and blind faith, you can get through your struggles as well.  

Until next time good readers, until next time.



Sunday, June 15, 2025

When The Wheels Started to Wobble part 1


I have to have one of the best jobs on the planet. I'm a state employee who trains people, and has a hybrid work schedule. It's been a build up however. I started working for the state in 2017 right after working for a non-profit that was forced to close its doors. The 2017 position was difficult, but nothing compared to what I was doing at the non-profit.

I worked with mentally ill adults. I was a 'floor staff' clinician. I monitored the milieu, ran groups, mediated disputes, and calmed down people when their voices got too loud. Also I was responsible for checking on patients every 15 minutes. Was this done alone, absolutely not, I worked with a team--a damn good one. We initially documented our days/evenings/nights on paper, but in 2018 (I believe) we went to a computerized system. For me the switch wasn't so bad, for some of my co-workers, let's just say, there were some choice words uttered under the breath many times.

In any case I stayed with the state for about three and a half years, while working at a high school. Around July of 2020, as Covid was still at a height, I received an opportunity to work full time as a teacher and respectfully left my position with the state. I taught online for that first year, getting to know students via zoom, and figuring out how to teach while sitting in my basement with comfy pants on. We ended up going back in the building by the end of the school year, but the educational damage had taken it's course. I continued on the second year, welcoming in the freshman class, and dealt with the rigors of teacher life in a middle school building that was shared between two schools.

The next year, I applied to be dean as my personal life was in grand shambles. I was accepted to be a dean


that following year, and worked tirelessly for students who didn't understand the value in education. I got fed-up, became disillusioned, and burned out.  I was invited back for another year, but I turned it down. But I needed a job. I didn't want to stay in education, but the only place that would hire me was a middle school in the same geographic area. I wasn't excited about teaching 8th grade, yet I swallowed what little pride I had left and went back to the classroom.

My experience as a middle school teacher was less than exceptional, taxing, and down-right hard as a constipated stool being forced through your anal cavity. By the time I was back in the classroom teaching 8th grade, I knew something in my life was wobbling. Not falling apart just yet—but vibrating hard enough to rattle the dashboard. I had a student call me a pedophile, and received little to no support from admin. During testing students were loud and disruptive. And I was saddled with a 40 student 1st period class. I began to apply for jobs by October. Around the end of November I noticed that the state was hiring for a trainer on the same computer system I was familiar with. I applied immediately. I was hired at the end of the semester just before winter break. I let the administration know, and my last day teaching was filled with joy, pictures, and a good time with my students.


I started my new position with the state, and it was pure joy. By March I felt very comfortable in my role. I was home Monday, Tuesday, and Friday, and only went into the office on Wednesday and Thursday. I taught the class every other Thursday. My joy had been redefined.

On Tuesday April 22nd, I was working from home, and decided to go get some lunch. I hopped in my car and headed down my city's main street. Just as I was nearing the area was the Justice Center was (courthouse, jail, etc) red and blue lights filled my rearview mirror, and police sirens filled my ears. I was being pulled over for having bad tags. I knew driving in this fashion was a mistake, but I was working on getting the money together to get new tags. 

The interaction I had with the officer was extremely respectful and professional. He told me why he had pulled me over, which I already knew, and the interaction we had was courteous. However, as he did whatever other check, it was found that I had a warrant. I was unaware of the warrant but figured my car might be impounded because of my tags. The warrant guaranteed that handcuffs would be in my immediate future. Because we were right at the Justice Center, he offered to park my car there in the parking lot, rather than have it towed. I was astonished and grateful. I still had to go to jail and get bailed out, but my car wouldn't be towed. 

I was told very little information about the warrant, but he did let me know that I could probably bond myself out on a signature bond, without paying anything. So I was cool. I don't believe getting all loud and emotional with police.  Like Goodie Mob said "Can't make no moves, when you in the hands of the man." The officer was so cool I was even able to text my boss and let him know the situation. 


To make a long story longer, I got booked, and sat in a cell around 11:45 am. By 3:27, I had bonded myself out, with a signature bond and was walking toward my car. 

I tell this story to say that you never know the road that life will take you on. The plan might be to teach for your entire professional life, but life will throw you a curve ball way after Covid. The plan might be to grab some lunch, and you end up going to jail. We never know what is around our next corner. So remain as calm as you can, and if you can't, try fuckin' harder!

This was not the best thing to happen to me, but it was far from the worst. However it was the beginning of very trying spring.  Read the next post to see what happens next!