Doodles, Updates... Poetry???

If you think all I do is doodle all day, that would be a flaw in your thinking.  I do work with my kids, it does not take a lot to give them a task, and have them stay on it.  The environment is not as stressful or ridgid as the treatment center, so I have more time at the school.  On occasion I will prepare lesson plans, or assist my teacher with the plans.  So I am left with a lot of time through my day.  It is easier to doodle rather than write, because when I write, I become so engrossed that it is hard to multi-task.  So I may write a line or two, but mostly I am watching my boys, and making sure they are staying on task.

I wanted to put this in my entry because co-workers at my second job (the treatment center) looks at my notebook and thinks I don’t do anything all day.  And like I stated, it’s not that I don’t do anything, we have less children, more staff, and the behaviors are not as severe. 

So as I was doodling, on Friday, I started to write a poem.  This poem led to an idea for a book that I am going to start working on.  The idea is a bit different, it is going to include all of my writing styles and storytelling abilities.  I was considering doing a graphic novel, however I would have to find a artist, then have to collaborate with them…it just seemed like a bit much.  I am not going to post the poem in type because it will probably end up in the book, but you can read it on the doodle.

So in conclusion, the doodles are up, enjoy those, and if you have come across this doodle, please leave a comment, hit me up on facebook (http://www.facebook.com/poetfourzerotwo) or listen to my spoken word music on soundcloud (http://www.soundcloud.com/poet402) or, if you really want to support an artist like me, buy a book (http://www.lulu.com/clarencenabraskabarbee) I have some pretty good, and pretty cheap chapbooks up there for you.  Thanks for coming by and enjoy your life!!!...there is a secret poem after the last doodle....yaayy!!

I doodle with my poodle,

put my day on the page

tryin’ to keep the kids calm

so their rage won’t

ruin their days.

We try to keep it easy,

staff with both jobs are

great,

but at the treatment center

some of the staff

be showin’ entitled hate.

I be keepin’ it easy

dressed to the nine,

Monday thru Wednesday,

I be lookin’ fine.

But when Thursday hit,

I get ready for shit,

literally—

because girls at the treatment center

think they playin’ baseball,

and staff got a catchers mitt.

So I dress down,

put my hair up,

in my hat

holdin’ onto my patience

like parents hold on to their

babies.

I love my life, and you better as well

I’m not a saint, but sometimes it feels

that I work with

demons from hell.

New Year, New Goal, Comments & Collaborators Welcome

New day, new year, and so many hopeful aspirations.  My doodles are just chronicles of my day.  As I’ve stated before, I am a server of children.  I am a employee of a public school here in Colorado, and a employee of a girls treatment center and group home.  Yes I do aspire for more as well.  I am a poet, essayist. and writer of short stories.

After having stumbled three years ago I have risen from my knees atop a great mountain of potential that I yearn to see to fruition.  My goals for this upcoming year are these: 1. Retain both jobs, 2. Perform out of town with poetry and my sax (Mona Jezebel, 3. Change my part-time job of working at the treatment center to one of either performing and/or motivational speaking.

I am almost half a month into this new year, and not any closer to these goals.  I am no fool, I will be needing help from anyone who comes across this blog, or my soundcloud page, or facebook, or any social media information that I am putting out.  I need you to comment, spread the word, or have me come to your show and perform.  If you are in the industry of working with youth, at-risk youth especially, please contact me, so I may address your staff or children.

I wish you all a very dear and wonderful good year.  My name is Clarence, aka ‘nabraska’, I have approved this message, and look forward to hearing from you soon.  In the mean time, please scroll down and enjoy the doodles and poetry.

He’s being

mean,

tryin’ to

ruin my

dream of

doin nothin’

tryin’ to

make me

accountable w/goals

of gettin’ to college

some of us

choose to sleep

our life away

if we are not

prodded to wake-up

and make something

out of life

Refuse to

show my blues to you

All you get is

mean mugs, hooded head

& shifting eyes—

if I choose to make

eye contact—

Fuck this; you done

already snapped on

ole boy about dude…..

I see how this do;

Refuse to show

you my blues,

I just put my head

down,

& show you, I’m through.

I see

head on arm;

arm over eyes,

chin resting on

two stacked fist

& one chin resting

on book

No one reading

seeing too many

pairs of eyes

 

If I color 

like a child

my creativity w/changes

has a better chance

to maintain itself &

grow.

She was ok 

w/her attacker

going to jail.

Felt guilty about 

all the time

he got b/c of 

her.

Said he kept her in 

a small cardboard like box, 

for no good reason.

kidnapping dogs

ruin little 

girls.

Doodle created at girls treatment center; Friday night 1.10.14

The Beach Post

So I just got back from Mission Beach San Diego.  I had a wonderful time; the people was great, food wonderful, and the beach was magnificent!!  See, upon my arrival in Denver, I was running away from home and was planning to go to the Pacific Ocean.  Well....things got a bit sidetracked (you can check http://newbrothaschronicle.blogspot.com/ to see how things got sidetracked) However, in any case, I never lost sight of my goal of making it to the Pacific Ocean.  This vacation is my testament to endurance, to never losing sight of making a goal and dream reality.  So here are some wonderful pictures of my goal in fruition!

When I arrived, it was night, and the beach was there!!!

ain't night grand??!!!

View From My Room

View from my hotel

Another fab view from my hotel

Castles Made of Sand

This is the bridge I would cross to get to the beach, scared of heights but I did it!!!

I like to call this, the three wise men, or birds, love wild life in Cali!!

Ya Boy @ Peace

Proof that dreams come true!

Holiday Work...but not really...Strange Grounds Open Mic revisited

So it's Christmas Eve, and I'm debating about doing a video...leaning more toward not.  However, I have gotten around to editing the recording I did in November with Strange Grounds open mic. First up is Dave, here is a pic, and his music.  Sorry I couldn't get my player to be here, but the links will take you to their music, so click and enjoy!!

Dave's Performance


Next up we have the host Eugene Christopher.  He's a very cool dude, so click the link and check him out.  BTW his pic is here for your enjoyment

Eugene Christopher

Up next we had the wonderful Matt.  He is an awesome guitar player, please enjoy, and as always click the name to be wisked off for his great performance!

Matt

I think we need some female energy up in this piece.  I'm not sure if I'm spelling her name correctly or not, but hopefully I'm right.  This is Mave ya'll

Mave

And last but certainly not least, is me.  I think I did pretty well.  And if you are one of the performers from that night, and you want me to put up your pic and performance, just let me know and I'll make it happen.  You can always hit me up at poet402@yahoo.com The pic is not from that night, but the only one I got of me with my sax....

Me @ Strange Grounds

Well, that's bout it folks, a big big thank you to Strange Grounds!!  This was the first time I performed A Love Story Extended, and I think people enjoyed it.  I also gave away free cd's that night, it was Amazing!!!

Last Doodles of the Year; Squeezed in poetry

So here we have it folks, the last doodles of the year.  They are not in any specific order as I'm backdating it. Some doodles have been dated if you look carefully.  However I will be updating things such as tour dates and life ish for the new year.  Happy New Year ya'll, ya boy, poet402

Small stud on clock
represents radical change to
wind gust, that slap hat wings, blowing
pollen over over-grown grass under
sunlights; sunday through saturday.

Tomorrow is the Bistro, & recently pepper sprayed
pupils will participate in the passing of food to
staff....

Rollin' on, rollin on.  Been waitin'
like a child on Christmas Eve

It's what cha' doin', round this time
of year;
are you goin' somewhere or
are you stayin' here?

Over-hyper-active acting
pre-pubescent adolescent
was allowed tackle football
at lunch--damn good way
to fight the jitters

We
do
math
w/angles
& degrees
findin'
out how
easy; 3
tower
addition
can be
when we
work together
in middle
schools;
refuse to be
fools for no
school on Friday
We break
successfully
for the holiday

Got them New Friday Doodles!!! 12-6-13 (Even Got Some Poetry)

My Friday (day) was pretty good.  The evening went ok, it wasn't until the end of the night, that things went south on me.  However, I give thanks to good friends who helped my through rough times, and then read me books until the pain subsided.  Thanks people, we do what we do because we care, and you all showed that to me Friday night/Saturday morning; lmao.  I'll do a post about the drama sometime tonight...for now, I'm out!!

Friday 12-6-13 Doodle done in SPED Class

School Day

12/6/13=31

1.

We stare blankly

into screens hoping to

gain information—

but all we get is

leftover, spoiled,

Thanksgiving,

turkey, mashed potatoes, and

thick gravy—

resembling pudding.

2.

How do we know

they are right

when they talk drug

abuse and cognitive loss

between the ages of 18-

27.  Yea, I smoked some weed.

And I can’t remember last night’s

exact words about frontal lobe

mushy stuff—am i damaged?

3.

Amazing how

much time is

wasted in the

name of education.

4.

more about

tracking behavior

than correcting

behavior, than

educating, interacting,

growing children 

Friday 12-6-13 Doodle 2 Started in SPED Class, finished at 2nd job; Group Home/Treatment Center

End of November, First of December Doodles

So these are the brand new doodles.  They were done the Friday just before Thanksgiving break, and the week after.  Friday's doodles are not done because it is Friday at 2:42am and I haven't gone to work yet.  I will be updating the open mic post with mp3's in a separate post. Please enjoy with smiles and toys!!!  12-7-13, updated with poem that u can read, just scroll down

11-21-13 Doodle

11-28-13 Thanksgiving Doodle 2

11-28-13 Thanksgiving Doodle 1

Doodle 12-2-13 Monday 1

Doodle 12-2-13 Monday and 12-4-13 Wednesday...what happened to Tuesday???? (hell I dunno)

12-5-13 Thursday Doodle 1

12-5-13 Thursday (Poetic) Doodle 2

In All Directions Poetry

Poetry In All Directions

(in no particular order)

Not really in the mood to do the

EYC thang but I need the

$$ for vaca’s so I can

vacate—

even the moon & stars don’t take

me far enough from

my

problems, un-proper

pauper, printing promises

on borrowed bills of

phantasy.

really in red sunsets I gather

gratitude from the greatness

which cooperation provided

Big $$ is not a goal when you got

God on

your side. He’s the

G.O.A.T whenever you need

a ride; He’s been with me

ever since I slid out my

mama’s insides

I am beauty, pain, a poster child

for humanity, I am the perfect

me that

I can be & when that’s

not great enough for all to see

I find the nearest beach & flee

I’m sure she

surveyed my

prescense the

last time I

was present

my stalker’s a

bad ass proletariat

I

dig chicks

w/sharp minds

& big hips

I so dig

expanding both of

those things

When

you learn

your body tenses

but brain expands

stand on your head

poetic carousel w/

words misspelled like

I’m an A.N. kid

waitin on bail

u can’t tell?

12-5-13 Thursday (between AN Room and EYC) Doodle 3

So these will be stories accompanying some of these doodles because well, lets just say it's been a hell of a week, and some of these stories need to come to light.  I will also update the poetry doodle, just because it's a dope fuckin' doodle that like a poetic doodle and needed to be done....enjoy this for now ya'll!!!!