Monday, December 29, 2025

Fail Forward

Well, we kinda shit the bed as it came to our “12 days of xmas” posts.  Final count 6 posts from December 15th-December 23rd.  Meh, I can live with it I guess. It’s now New Year’s season (funny how that changes in a week’s time.)  



The goal for the remainder of the week will be to buy some author books, plan the final posts for the end of this year, plan the first three for ‘26 and then begin the hunt.  I need to finalize my manuscript and find indie publishers and agents to send them out to. 


As I’m doing that I also need to find some in-person author events, and plan my own. I would love to plan an event in Colorado Springs with two other Black authors.  It does seem extremely daunting, but it’s only that way because it’s on paper with no action, currently.


How am I feeling about the end of 2025 and the beginning of 2026? I would say a little better than last year.  This year was a big writing year for me; I completed and published a free ebook, and recorded my first audio book.  So yeah, I’m pretty hopeful about continuing this journey. I’ve learned that posting on social media can be overwhelming, and I need to back that up with more in-person stuff.


On a side note, this time last year I was preparing to leave teaching and had some doubts. But hey, I’m still employed and things seem to be moving in an upward fashion.


So this is it for now good faithfuls, I’m heading over to the Ai room to start the journey of creating at least 3-4 post to end this year out on.  


Until next time good folk–duckies!



Tuesday, December 23, 2025

AM Morning Poem, that Went off The Rails

 Roll call

roll up

just roll out’ta bed

We ain’t rollin’ up

no weed, 

we sippin’ coffee instead


Tryin’ to hit goals

on a Tuesday morn,

but the pen is 

rough stuck, 

like we not even born

Able mind

able body

ableism is a thing

kind of hard to spell

as ageism stings–






Lower back, lower town

we drownin’ in pain,

pop 2 Advil,

so the poet can sang

Sang a song

hit the bong

old Nick is here, 

don’t call him saint

because my X’s a bitch

it didn’t rhyme, fuck the crime


Some will cry &

crash

this is just an attempt 

at A.M. madness 

mash the gas

pass the stash

find the hash

hold the ash

steady the hand

handle the pain

suck up the tears

for some seeds

you plant will just 

grow crooked

But can’t camp out 

at Fort Whimper & Whine 

straighten & stiffen

your spine, as your 

coffee cup begs for wine

at 8:03 am–




It’s the 23rd slim

and you got 48 

to strangle;

Do your best 

not to

suffocate or hate

this time of year

just because you stopped 

believing in the 

fight

8:04 am—


fuck you.





Monday, December 22, 2025

Hey Bruh, This One Counts


 

Yes, I know it's the 22nd and I also know I'm really behind on my goal.

...but hear me out,
            ....hear me out now

I've been busy.  I have done some writing, but just haven't posted it.

            (I think)

However I did kinda dive deep with some music and recording, and stuff.  What started out as a simple beat, turned into me laying down some keys, then the sax jumped up out of nowhere....

then that damn pen went to work...and that damn vocalist aka poet slid through....

        damn, damn, damn


However, I have documented it all here for you. I'm not posting the words or lyrics, just because I feel it's spoken word worthy, but not like written word, and show the world kind of thing worthy

Until next time, cheers

                        ps. this one counts as those 12 damn days of xmas
                                    love you little fucker <3

Thursday, December 18, 2025

When a Writer Records & Wants to Make an Album as a Break

 When a Writer Records & Wants to Make an Album as a Break


Ain’t writer’s block–

written word complete 

like 

Vince’s forearm through 

the hoop–wrap!

Did that recording 

like

vets with mics &

headphones,

heavy blankets &

taped up studio foam


Now the urge to 

perform

comes callin’...

contactin’ past producers 

and askin’ 

if they got any 

throw away packs


If the 

day job provides the 

paycheck,

then the night provides the 

passion–

Like green tennis balls 

packed in pipes

being passed,

perfectly between 

smiles & metaphors,

stone language

& so much more–


But I tuck 

imagination under

hats hiding grey hairs

placing the performer 

& artist

on the back-burner ---

allowing the author 

some time at the show…


Real fun places 

exist between 

completing an audio-book, 

promotions & 

rest…


Don’t want to 

cap creativity

but also not ready 

to dive in knee deep 

to a musical project 

with sax, keys, and possible 

poetry

but shit, 

I really want 

to let it fly


Rest, Recharge


Still got time to rhyme,

prime poetry for ‘26

will exist 

even if agents &

indie publishers 

rush to show me 

the exit…


This ain’t 

writer’s block,

it’s a battlefield


& I’m still fightin’....



Hope you liked this poem (I’m including it in my 12 days of xmas post). Also because I’m struggling a bit with wanting to do a recording, I’m including some pictures of these models.  I’ve been working on them for a while. Enjoy and see you soon!














Tuesday, December 16, 2025

Deep Appreciation 4 My Peoples

 I decided to do this a lil bit different.  I did a video showing love to all the people who supported me, interviewed me and helped the writer in me move forward and be successful!  Thank you!!






Monday, December 15, 2025

"Lessons & Libations," Lessons Learned

Trying to keep this schedule is not the greatest.  However, the goal for the day is to post 2 posts to make up for Sunday and stay on track.  Let’s see how it goes.

So what did I learn this year in creating Lessons & Libations? I’m a pantser, always has been, probably will continue to be. (For non bookish people this means, I don’t plot things out or make an outline, I just fly by the seat of my pants.) 


I also found a really excellent editor, Ms. Deneishia LeArtiste! Deneishia was a “dope find” because she’s now a person I consider a friend. I wish her well on her journey, and will call on her to edit future works. This was also really special because I haven’t been able to find a editor that I can actually call on, and get like real feedback.  The icing on the cake is that she was local, and I love working with local folks. In speaking of editors I also reconnected with an old friend, Lonnie Gatewood. This was great because he created a book cover for me. I ended up using a different cover for the e-book, but I was able to use his cover for the audio-book version, which was very cool. Reconnecting with Lonnie was great because this is a bro’tha that I’ve known for about 20 years, and talking with him gave me confidence I thought I’d lost.


I realized I could write a 8,000 word book or 8,000 words in about three months if I stuck to my process. Speaking of processes, I also found out that going analog (actually writing in a notebook with a pen) still works for me. It still breaks the writer’s block. Also with this process I figured out how to format an e-book using google docs the right way with links and all that good jazz.



On the business side of things, I finally figured out a place to host my own bookstore.  Payhip has been great! It’s super easy to use, and I’ve even made a couple of sales and spent the money (lol). But this was actually a big one for me because for years I’ve preached on having your own and not depending on “big box” stores like Amazon and Barnes & Noble.  They’re ok, but so many people have issues on the way they pay authors, do business, are a monopoly, etc.  So it’s good that I can direct people to a more indie destination for people who are conscious about they way they spend their hard earned money.  And that is important, that does matter. On another business front I bought 10 ISBN’s.  ISBN’s will list me as the publisher instead of the “big boxes” like Amazon. So I’m really a publisher  now. 


This fact of having my own ISBNs has changed my mindset in a big way. I try to think more as a publisher, than just a writer who publishes. Anyone who has self-published has more than likely understood this concept. It’s not an easy concept to wrap your head around because success can look more economic than just putting something up on Amazon. I want my book in the hands and ears of people. To do that, I have to be dedicated to promotion, going to different author events, create in-person events, and freakin’ sell books. (I’ve never been keen on selling, but hey, I’m in publishing now!)


Lessons & Libations was the first book I made into an audio book. The possibility has been there, but this year with this book I made it a reality. As a spoken word artist, I’ve been to different studios, recorded with different people; hell, I’ve even recorded my own shitty albums. But this was different. I didn’t want to do this for the sake of doing it. I didn’t want it to be shitty.


I wanted good sound, good quality; something I could be proud of. I bought a new mic, scheduled time, read the book out loud in practice and then recorded it. I can fully understand why authors want to hire a voice actor but I also understand finances and wanting to create regardless. It is what it is. I also found a great site to alter my voice using Ai, so it’s not really allowing Ai to create for me, but using it as the tool it is. Lesson & Libations is filled with different characters, and I don’t have a large vocal range. However, I wanted to be able to give these characters a voice, and I didn’t have any budget. So I did what many are doing and utilized Ai. Am I wrong? Do you want to pull my “creator card” now? I’ll be happy to field any comments or have any conversations regarding this.


There is always passion in recording. I’ve been hesitant about making a spoken word album/cd/download/streams but making an audio-book wouldn’t be that. I spoke about this a little bit with Mitch on the Poets Podcast. Recording is just a different beast. There is nothing like hearing yourself in those headphones, or hearing your work, take a new life of its own. I thought about putting music behind the whole thing, then thought about having music on certain ones; I ended up landing on no music, but crisp solid tone heavy audio. The only bad thing is that I want to do more. Therefore, be on the lookout for more audio books. 



I’ve also learned to take my marketing more seriously. I did a cover reveal for both books, and updates for them. I did a lot, and I mean A LOT of posting on social media. I scheduled and did multiple podcast interviews, which was great! And for the beginning of next year I’m working on an online book tour. I wouldn’t say that I’ve mastered launching a book, but now my process is becoming more clear. I will say that I have to learn patience! Patience is key because you won’t be able to schedule interviews on podcasts on a moment’s notice.  Things take time; it’s not just your schedule, it’s the schedule of others. Also money has to line up. Marketing cost and I have to make sure I know what’s needed in the “kitty” to make sure my paid marketing, pays off.  


These were the lessons, at least the ones that have come off the top of my head the last 12ish hours or so. As for the libations part, I wrote this sober. I also think the libations are just a part of my author lore at this point.


Well, kiddies, I think that will be that for a bit. Hope this helps, or was at least enjoyable to read.  As always, thanks for the read, and I hope your reading and writing goes well.


See you soon!