Sunday, April 26, 2020

forced recovery

fair warning: i'm in my feelings.  i titled this post forced recovery because i'm forcing myself to write for one.  and two, it's poetry--it's super personal (for lack of a better term). 

people go through thangs, poets go through thangs, we all goin' through something--we in a got-damn pandemic.  so my heart and soul goes out to all of you.  

this is for you, whether you be business owner, or mom who left her family, or dad who has been drinking through all this, or teen who is just trying to figure this ish out.  this is off the dome, don't give a damn kind of poetry.  it's 30 for 30 right??  well here go part of that 30......

The Idea of Essential

Push, protrude;
pick and nit-pick till 
the pumping of life-
blood through veins 
pop!

Pressure.

Call it a sickness, 
dangerous; pandemic
proportions  to pause your 
pockets till pituitary glands 
claims--
That’s Enough !

I am in Business

At least for brief 
moments,
I am. 
But brick & mortar 
be the base 
and sales be slipping to 
the basement.

More is needed 
than this 
raggedy-ass 
jump-start;
this so-called 
forgivable loan leverages.
Telling me I have to 
put my livelihood aside
and ride out this 
masked necessity time,
till peaks level out?!

Leadership is shit, and 
a joke. Leaving me broke.
Labeling me,

Non-essential. 
__________________________

prompt: Incomplete 

Pieces, like puzzles 
missing parts, or leaves 
leaving seasons behind;
I was no longer there.
In body but
soul secreted so much fire 
a smoldering spot
was all that was left.
Stepped on still,
unable to climb hills
heaven became a 
darkened stain unable 
to sustain any sizable fight.

you ever felt the feeling 
of trying to co-exist & 
every word, thought & emotion
was met w/sarcasm & an 
exit
for even the most 
simple idea.
your self esteem gets shot.
you try to fill the empty
spot w/substances bad 
for the body--
but you’re just trying to 
get full again.
get whole again. 
find right in your spirit
b/c your righteousness had been 
ridiculed to depths of 
ignorance & blame.

Ignored it in attempts to rebound

Pick up old pieces 
and speak existence into wind
till manifestations remaster 
right and left cranial 
cracks, closing the gaps
to become whole again--

my friend i am
incomplete

But working hard
against the ash
to become

free.
___________________________

Present, Pre-sent, Sent
            (for you)

     This is 
given. A gift,
questioned through five senses
because cents
don’t even gather.

Cash app--
     appalling be the balance
Paypal--
     pals ain’t payin

Given, blogged, free
will be total of 
30
even though
support low
and attempts to create 
an economy
is failing, miserably 

Tagline speaks of 
recovery; words be
in remission, while 
missions still made up 
in membranes, the
soul-brain still believes 
in dreams

so take this, as a gift.
no receipt to 
take back, cost is free.
space unsubstantial--
yet hopeful
an experience was had--

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